I've just been reading a book with that title filled with people stories of sexual encounters gone not quite right... I'd love to hear some people's stories! Email them or put them in a comment, I know I've shared a few in my time. Help amuse me a little on this sexless Friday night!
After a sleepless night and master patience and googling skills I finally found the name of the sexy dad from the footy I've written about! Seems he is smart as well as sexy as fuck. Tonight sleepless again I discover he's married. Must say I'm more than a little disappointed. He brought her to a game once I watched him watch me and not respond to her affection. He never brought her along again. What do I do with all my lust now????
Here is my story about being raped. Not just once, but twice by 2 different men in 2 different situations. I know some of you know one of the people and I sure hope it changes your opinion of the filthy cunt. I am not angry about it, I don't blame myself, I don't blame alcohol, I blame them. Mia Freeman seems to think its ok to wager her views in on the subject well I think she needs to shut her fucking mouth and stop sprouting her trite bullshit in the name of 'feminism' I'm a feminist Mia and I think you're an inempathetic run of the mill twat!
The first time I was taped was by a man from adult match maker, we had a weird not relationship not just sex kinda thing going on. He flew me to Brisbane coz he worked out in the mines and missed me. Promised me a romantic dinner etc etc we didn't leave the hotel room and dinner was a packages sandwich from the servo down the road. I should have known then to get the fuck out. I've told this story before about me setting myself the 100 day no sex challenge and him wanting to see me. The rules were laid out clear, no fucking, no touching. Nothing! We were laying on my bed kissing, and he pressed for more, I said no and he just kept at it. I was adamant about my challenge and stood my groud. What I couldn't control was a 6'4 man who weighed at least 150kg forcing my legs open, pinning my hands to the bed and forcing his fingers inside me. I laid there and cried. He stopped and I cried more. Then still thinking things were ok he pressed me for sex, after countless noes I gave in, if he was willing do what he did for a bit of finger action I didn't want to know what he'd do to fuck me. Brad McKay a man who forced himself inside my body, who fought with me after the fact that what he did was not wrong. Who said because eventually I just let him said it was ok. Well here I am naming and shaming you and saying it's NOT! I reported this to Adult Match Maker officials and was told unless I had a police report to go shove it. At the time I wasn't ready to tell anyone and that reaction sure didn't help the situation. How many more woman has this cunt done this to?
The second man Matthew Stidwell. A friend of a friend of a friend. I had tequila goggles on that night, drunk and horny we went back to my place. We fucked, I passed out and woke in the morning to him leaving for work, 8 hours later and still blind drunk I begged him to stay. He didn't but what did was the fact that dirty count gave me genital warts. He also informed me at a later date he'd preceded to have sex with me while I was passed out. His justification was I couldn't have not wanted it since I begged him to stay the next morning. Last time I checked someone who is unconscious cannot give informed consent. He also thought what he did was perfectly fine. This event was enough to spark me into not going out partying anymore. The humiliation of having to seek treatment for the STI and the horrification of knowing men like this existed were enough to turn me off the male gender for a long time.
Do not ever think it is ok to do something to anyone against their will nor if they are unable to defend themselves. I am quite open about speaking about what happened to me and for the most part do it with no emotion. I often wonder if these events should have effected me more than they have. Should I be a bawling mess who can't stand to be touched because of it? That's what society tells me I should be, is it ok that I have just moved in without needing therapy or to murder anyone? I don't blame myself, I know I was not at fault.
So at times i find myself asking: Am I too well adjusted for a duel rape victim???
And I mean SO LONG! I have wanted him! I have wanted him since I was 14! Over 10 years I have lusted for him, I projected that lust on to his brother for years. The sexual tension was crazy, people always thought we were a couple, but I always told him no and he knew to never bring up the subject of his brother!
For one fleeting night years ago we ended up in my bed, drunk and frisky. We kissed briefly, I put my hand on his cock and like a flash he was out of there!
Now after on again off again flirtation and contact we touched again! He is always wanting to meet, in the car, for a quickie. I don't want that, I want it to last, I want passion, I want it to be worth the wait. Fate stepped in last week and he was working on a building next to a dingy motel I was staying at for work. I walked out the door at 6:30am and there he was sitting in his car. Did he arrive early to try and see me? As he'd told me he'd seen me the previous day and tried to get my attention but failed. Am I deluded to even entertain that idea? He yelled out to me, we said hello I packed my car and then we awkwardly sat in our respective cars. I didn't want to leave, I wanted him. I sat struggling between my desire and my knowledge that he has a partner and a baby now, something that broke my heart a little. I'd only just been Facebook stalking him the night before as I hadn't seen his pics in a while, he was gone. Did I subconsciously know? He drove around the back and I went to 'say hello' I stood at his door making unwanted small talk. His hands reached for me. Feeling me, I was on fire. He is one of the only men in my life I had openly thrown myself at. We began to kiss me still standing him in the drivers seat. I moved to sit on his lap, he pulled up my top and took my nipple in his mouth. My lust out if control but I knew at any moment another 10 workers were going to exit the building. I couldn't control myself, I needed his lips, he whispered for me to suck him, I said no. I could feel him unzipping his pants as we kissed and he had his face in my top I stroked his cock! 'Oh fuck' it was all he could say. He came and I had a hand covered in his cum. He handed me a spare work shirt to clean up.
He wanted me to stay but with that I left. I didn't trust myself to stay. I want him too much, I may need him. I wish he was mine.
YOU! I've blogged about you before! Wasting my time! That cold winters night I was left standing on some strangers doorstep coz you stood me up! FUCK OFF! I don't live to stroke your ego fool! You can't fuck me but you fuck old hags!?!? Fuck everyone else in adultmatchmaker but never me? I call you on it and you chuck a hissy, then tell me you've always want to fuck me but that I'm the one person you always find an excuse not to. Well here son, here is your final excuse, you're fucking pathetic! Only want to make plans to maybe, perhaps, hopefully follow through. You avoid me because you know I WILL judge you, is that it? You're so rubish you don't want everyone to know? Now coz you know I'm going to fuck someone you know you want to make plans? You couldn't possibly let him have something you haven't! Here's a new flash for you, you aren't half the man he is and you are NEVER going to get to have me!
I've met my fair share in my almost 10 years of Internet dating. I just seem to attract weirdos! I am also a magnet for men who are all talk no action. Women are usually the ones that take the brunt of this accusation but time after time I find myself being brushed off! Then there are the men who chase you from interstate and you just know it is going NOWHERE! Or Mr Comes on so strong, you see things flying at lightning speed and you're wondering to yourself 'oh fuck I hope he doesn't tell me e loves me within a week!' Or then there is the one who drives me the craziest the one who chases who goes to great lengths to get you but then goes quiet and you sit there scratching your head wondering if you should chase them or if they've died in a horror car crash coz they haven't text in 3 weeks!
You all do my head in! But the man who is related to my last pet peeve I want to fall in love with and that sends me around the bend!
I've written about him before, the guy at the footy who I've flirted with now for 2 years. Well I hadn't seen him all season (that's a lie I've seen him but he didn't speak to me) but on Saturday we bumped into each other and the smiles were GIANT! We walked talking our arms pressed firmly against each other. He is electric, I haven't felt that with someone for a long time. He had his son and a friend with him so the conversation was short but it was enough to spark me into a Facebook stalking frenzy lol I know his Surname is Close and he lives in Gungahlin in Canberra in Aus and his son plays AFL. If by the slimmest of slim chances someone knows him hook a sister up lol I just wish I'd have been prepared for when I saw him coz I'd have slipped him my number but didn't feel right doing it in front of his son!
The last time I felt something like this was in high school with one of my best friends who I cheated on my first and only boyfriend with. He made me throw all logic out the window! I remember being at a friends house for an Xmas celebration web we were about 14 and we were getting photos taken as a large group on the couch and he reached around someone else to cup my breasts and still when I see the photos that is all I think about. Us sitting in class playing ridiculous games to give us an excuse to touch each other. In the middle of a class room my hand on his hard cock and him rubbing me with his foot. He'd rub me out in the open too, I remember a friend catching us groping each other in drama on day... She was pissed because she wanted him and because I had a boyfriend and was being a hussy. It didn't stop us! How I never got caught in high school doing bad shit was beyond me. He'd pin me against the wall in the back of the hall during music rehearsals and have me like putty in his hands!